Rant

Ok wow almost has been a full year since my last post, and it amazing how much has changed.

But my real reason for this post is that i have something on my mind and i NEED to get it off my chest.  I start to think about my life and how it is with the Lord, and im not too happy with myself. I love my Lord and His involvment in my life is incredible.  I think about cuss words.  People's argument for them is that they are just words and its only society that gives them any power, but thats the easy way out.  The more challenging thing, the more aginst the grain, the more individualistic way is to say no. I'm not going to say those words and i dont care about fighting against "the man" cause i like "the man!!"  I also think about some of my friends and how easy is it for them to live their lives for themselves, and not for God.  Hear I am stuggling to keep afloat in His eyes, swimming up stream where others do not know the Lord and how easy is it for them to coste along without a care. I could very easily not go to church or lead the life im not supposed to. I could go out and drink and party and stay out all hours of the night having the time of my life but i dont. Why you ask? Cause living for God and in his purpose for my life is tons more rewarding to me than all of those material stuff that dont last.  You can only drink so much, you can only stay up so long.  But i choose to live the way of my Savior for the purpose of me doing his will and showing others through my own experiances why i choose this way of life.  This is how im having not the time of my life, but the time of the short life God has givin me to spend with others on this earth before its time to join him in heaven, and live in his presence for all eternity.  I LOVE the Lord. And you know its about time i stop being a pussy and take control of the things im just giving excuses for.  Like smoking. Im just gonna stop.  Not give the excuse that i want to be able to afford a patch, gum, or pill. Im just gonna stop, and trust that God will heal me from the addiction.  Not saying that there wont be hard times in craving them, but thats when the enemy comes into my head and fools me into thinking i need one. So when the time comes ill pray and ask God to deliver me from this craving.  Also im going to start calling myself and others out on stuff.  Im sick of being quiet just so someone could like me.  My dad's boss's daughter came into town and was stuck here for a bit so i hung out with her tonight and i found myself thinking about how i could jazz up some of my self labeling bad times so she could hear about my drinking days and i saw me wanting to act like i still do so i could fit in with her.  But im never going to see her again after tonight, she goes home to Kansas City tomorrow, and she leaves without know the real God fearing derek.  She just thinks im a kind of partier who also wants to be a pastor.  Saying to some one my career calling shows how serious i am for my Lord, and i need to grow a pair and back it up.

People talk about our president and how horribal the things are hes doing, but God put him into office for a reason and we need to put our trust in God and in our leader. When times are bad it shouldnt make us abandon him, it should make us support him in any way possable.  I cant wait for the new elicions cause then i can be involved and really see who God wants us to choose from to be our new leader.

Oh another thing, do you ever realise that in a conversation that you can talk about God all you want, but the moment you say Jesus, or Christ, the tension goes up?  Not just for the listeners hearing those awkward words, but for the speaker too?  I am no longer going to be afraid of talking about Jesus not God but full fledged Jesus.

OK well i think that concludes my rant, lol.

Now i can sleep and tomorrow is yet another glorious day in the eyes of Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior

Blessing to you all,

D Rod

Alright well i know i said that i was gonna be more active on here now but i was wrong.  Sorry, i lied.  But now im posting cause i would like to.  lol   Well things that are new for me are as follows,

I have found (with my frat brother Phat Pat) a wonderful huge house for 8 of us to live there next year. 

I love cheerleading, and as games come to a close things for compitition's are starting to speed up!

Had my first girlfriend here at Bradley.  Broke up with her, she went nuts, and now we dont speak or look at eachother.  Good thing we dont have nemore classes together!!!

Im loving the best thing in my life more than i have ever had, God.

Alright, i gotta go sleep but untill next time i come back..... toodles!!!

Blessings in Him

OK so now i have so much more time on my hands so i can finaly get back to writing in Xanga.   *sniffs heavily* fells great to be back!

So cheerleading is going amazing, and i am having so much fun at Bradley.  I want to get to know this one person, but i have the feeling they dont like me, idk.  Kaity got some bad news an hour ago, and well...... KAITY I LOVE YOU!!!!!! YOU DONT NEED THE BASTARED!!! AND IF YOU NEED ME TO KICK HIS ASS KNOW THAT IT IS JUST LIKE SEX, HAVENT DONE IT IN A WHILE, SO IM WAITING TO DO IT AND IT WILL BE OVER REALLY QUICK WITH ME ON TOP!!! LOL

So nothing else to post, really glad to be back from break, and eager for these next two and a half weeks to be over and then ill be home for a long long time!!!!   Solid.

Blessings,

~derk

Ok well college life is under way!!  Im meeting lots of girls, and they are hot!!  My roomate is cool.  Our dorm is the place to be, lol. 

I have my choir audition tomorrow, and i found out that i have a good chance of getting into the Madrigal Singers (a elete group of 16 just like four squared) So thats cool.

FUNNY STORY!!

So i wake up this morning, and go take a shower.  Then when i come out, our hall is flooded with water!! 
 Just fyi, my room is in the basement of University Hall. (U Hall) Which has no airconditioning, so its hot as hell, and this week is the hottest week of the year, so im melting.  lol
So back to the story, i then left and went to this worship service, so i found out from Chris (roomate) that it flooded our room, he had to unplug my comp cause the water was right by the desk..... and they had to come on and bleach our floor and all this stuff.  Its a good first night story. lol

Yup well tonight is The Taste of Bradley, just like Taste of Colorado, where resarants come out and you can buy a sample of their food with these cupons you buy, so its neat.

Alright im gonna go watch TV on my suede futon.  Ill post pictures later of my room for sure!!! Bye all, call me and/or post comments so i know people are out there!!! Love you all, and i miss Jax and Jason so much!!!!

Blessings,

~Derk

Currently Listening Any Given Thursday By John Mayer, John Mayer 83 see related

Ok so now on the morning of my move in im ready.... NO IM NOT!!  i guess i have just been nieve about this whole thing.  That this day will never come, and i was just preparing for some day far down the road.  But here i am sitting on the doorstep of college life.  My dad WILL go back to Colorado today, and i won't. My dad WILL go home and see my mom and sister, and i won't.  My dad WILL, but wait! I get to go and meet brand new people. Ill get to go to CHI TOWN, which btw is so amazing!  Ill get to be in a choir again. im excited.

So here i am sitting in the hotel, with a stomach ache.  Which i get before every major event in my life oddly.  I had one before i got my braces, i had one before i went to DSA for the first time, and i had one before i got my wisdom teeth out.  But this morning i think it is also doe to the pizza i had last night at Old Chicago. lol

Well i guess its time to get ready cause we have to move in right at 8 so my dad can get back to the airport in chicago. Im ready, im ready, im excited.

Countdown...... oh man im so used to having a count down and i have no idea what to countdown to?? Ill think of something. lol

Blessings,

~Derk